Although we try to fight it, we all at some point want and need to get close... to someone...

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I decided a while ago that I did not need you
I did not need you to hold me, to catch me if I slipped
I decided I did not need to hear your promises and dreams for us
Certainly not your “I love yous”
I decided to block you out because it was a lot easier that than getting excited each time you knocked…
But as I sit here and tremble… I long for you
I am now out of my daze and realize I want you!
I want you here, but I can’t bare the pain
I want to love again but it’s all still a blur
I have forgotten how that works
I want to remember what it is to trust
To breathe instead of gasping
Of floating instead of running
I want to open up and give me to you instead of hiding me from you
I will not fear as it may become my reality to be left here to stand alone
So with that said… if you ask nicely, I might say yes and you can have me.

Written by: Danushka Chouloute